Well crap. I have NO food in my house. I mean really...NOTHING.

My fridge looks like Edward Norton's fridge from Fight Club, just random condiments and no actual food.

Damn.

I'm gonna go get some pizza or something then watch Grey's (which I'm desperately hoping has begun waterskiing AWAY from the damned shark already...).

God, I'm so negative tonight. I need to eat liek whoa. My hunger is killing my squee...

OK. WTF. Seriously.

I come home from work tonight excited about watching the SEASON PREMIERE (that would be EPISODE 3.01!!!) of Grey's Anatomy that I recorded from CTV. So I fire up the ole DVR and start watching the episode thinking...hmm...we're kinda jumping into the middle of things, there's no resolution of anything from the season finale, it's almost like they've skipped ahead and haven't shown anyone really dealing with the whole aftermath of Denny's death and such.

But I watch the ep anyway, it was enjoyable for what it was. But then I find out after the fact that CTV AIRED THE WRONG FUCKING EPISODE!!! They showed episode 3.02!!!!!!

WTF, CTV???!!!

*stabs things*

So now I have to go find the ACTUAL season premiere and download it...motherfuckers...

ETA: OK, crisis averted. I have now downloaded the premiere and will be watching it within minutes! \o/!

Even though it's 5:13 AM (!!!) and I should be going to bed but I CAN'T because this show pwns me far too much and I can't just leave it on my computer un-watched!

ETA 2: Oh, IZZIE! *cries buckets*


I swear, it's been like the day of TV betraying me at every turn. I thought that msn.com was going to have the premiere of SPN available for download, as I'd read that, like, everywhere, but it's nowhere to be found on the site (unless it's there and I'm just an idiot and can't find it). Also my DVR just DIDN'T tape a couple of other shows I had set it to record tonight. Like I looked in my "scheduled recordings" after the fact and it showed them there, but just didn't bother ACTUALLY recording them when they were on!

This better be an isolated incident, DVR, because if you do this to me with SPN next week I'm gonna have to choke a bitch.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I'm feeling very odd right now, all sick and panicky for no particular reason. I honestly can't tell if I'm feeling sick because I'm panicky or I'm feeling panicky because I'm sick.

*breathes*


I'm in this weird, overly emotional headspace for the past few days, I think a lot of it is because I've been spending entirely too much time by myself. I just don't deal well with being completely in my own head for extended periods of time. pumpkin_dude and I continue to be on completely opposite shifts at work, so I see him less than a half an hour every day. So yeah, that totally fucking sucks. Thankfully we have the long weekend coming up so I can finally spend some actual time with him.


I'm really sorry that I haven't been commenting on your journals in the past little while, I'm going to at least make the attempt to catch up with everything in the next couple of days. Either that or I'll just say "fuck it" and just read the past few days, considering it will take me like 12 solid hours to actually read thru everything that's been posted since last week. I know there are a bunch of comments I haven't responded to and I really need to feedback a few vids and fics. Again, I am sorry. Stupid internet-related guilt.

I annoy myself sometimes. Anytime I'm away from LJ for a few days and I know my flist is at like skip=1000 or more I tend to get intimidated and instead of trying to catch up with my flist while it's still at an even slightly manageable size, I wind up just avoiding it entirely for several more days because it's just too overwhelming. Then it like doubles in size and becomes even MORE unwieldy. Yeah, work taking away my LJ access? Ruining my life. For serious.


The main reason why I haven't been around in the past week and a half is that I suddenly had an insanely strong muse attack last weekend. I haven't had this much of a NEED to make a vid in...well, ever. I mean, it's not the most brilliant or complex vid I've ever done, and weirdly enough it's not even set to one of the six songs on my SPN vid list that I vowed to finish during the hiatus. I just found this song and my muse basically grabbed me by the throat and said "OMG! VID THIS RIGHT THE FUCK NOW!!!"

So yeah, I had hoped to finish it in just a couple of days, but sadly that hasn't been possible. I've been working on it FOREVER and I still have about 1/3rd of it left to go. I kept having timing problems as the song has an uneven beat and for awhile I couldn't quite figure out exactly where to cut and things like that. But I think I've finally got it worked out now, I just need to actually FINISH the fucker. Hopefully it turns out OK. I have this fear that it will wind up being one of those vids that only really makes sense to me. I'm not able to look at it objectively so I really won't know if it will make sense to anyone else until it's already done. I just know that I HAVE to finish it.


Blah, anyway. I'm getting moved to a new contract at work which means four whole weeks of paid training. Four weeks without having to deal with ANY asshat customers! *dances* It almost feels like a frigging vacation. It's boring as hell, but give me boring lessons over screaming fuckwads any day.


And on to some TV related things because I haven't posted about ANY shows in almost two weeks! I'm the worst fangirl ever.

( Grey's Anatomy )


( American Idol )


( Veronica Mars )


Speaking of new seasons of CW shows...waiting for the 18th to hear if SPN is renewed is giving me a fucking ulcer. Because I know I flat out will not be able to handle it if that show gets canceled. I know it's pretty much a sure thing at this point, but I just can't relax until it's officially renewed.


K, I'm going to shut up now because this is officially the longest, most disjointed post ever.